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hy didn�t we ever fight them none? Why, it ain�t right, ain�t it? Going against them white folks. We thought it be our unbelievein� that wuz to be blamed for our yokes an� bondages. Why, many of us black folks had gone an� git oursels� baptized with them holy�sprit, thinkin� that oughta git us freed. But it seems we wuz wrong, we wuz born to be slaves, there ain�t disputin� that.
Even the preacher on Sunday said so, standing behind the pulpit. Them preachers always said so. They says it be a God-given right for them God-fearing white folks to own slaves an� it be right there, writ� in the bible. That we niggers oughta know our places an� keep to them, keeping our heads bowed an� voices low in servitude. An� if the Almighty says it, there ain�t gonna be no disputin� it none!
We can�t fight them, it ain�t right. But some of us, we try to run away. When we can�t suffer the pain no more, we run away, even though our backs may be hurtin� with them chokecherry trees an� them bitter fruits, we ran as far an� as fast as our nekkid, blisterin� feet can carry us, followin� that drinkin� gourd to our freedom. I darn� run away at all. I darn, I wuz always too scared, without my Jim wit�me. So I just git on with the pain each day, hoping for my sweet lord Jeezus to come an� take it all away, in them sweet ol� chariot.
Once, though, Mister Jones came to the barn in a stupor. There�sa been some partyin� an� dancin� in the big house an� Mister Jones had gone an� drunk too many. He came into the barn when them boys an� men wuz cleaning theysels� out in the back an� he touched me, he touched me deep, Missy, an� I wuz scared. I juz closed my eyes an� wished the bad dream away.
When I open my eyes again, Mister Jones wuz gone. I gets up an� started running outta the barn, I ran so fast I couldn�t see what wuz coming at me an� what wuz getting pass me. I just ran, Missy, I wuz scared an� kinfused. But the road could see me an� threw a rock somewheres an� tripped me. I fell an� had gone hit my head on a hard thing an� fainted, feverish an� passed out.
I musta ran very far that night, cos� when I wakes up, I wuz in a nice room. I wuz more kinfused, thinkin� I�d gone an� died an� went straight to sweet Jeezus. Thas� when I sees another nigger, calls hissel� Bill Still, smiled at me an� darn tol� me not to worry, cos� I be his cargo an� findin� mysel� a friend wit� friends. He said I�d be resting here at this station, tha� it�s aw�right since he be a conductor or stationmaster or somesuch.
I had gone an� thot� he be talkin� crazies since he callin� his house a station an� bringin� them nonsense words asa� underground railroad. There be no such thing asa� underground railroad, I thot to mysel�. How tha� train gone move through under the ground? But I be so tired then, I juz fell sleep.
Shor� enuf� I wakes up sitting in some ol� coach an� I wuz scared again. But there wuz another nigger wumen next to me an� she wuz smiling. I wuz reliev�d some, seeing another of my kin� smilin�, but I ax� her why she be smilin� anyways. �Why, you be smilin� too girl! We heddin� up north with the gourd, up the free north with�em drinkin� gourd girl!�
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